Had To Start Somewhere

Had To Start Somewhere By The Seed Blaster This is about my first time. I didn't set out on this course in life but I figure you just play the game with the cards you were dealt. Somewhere along the line a psychologist told me that my problem with females came from an oppressive mother and feelings of inadequacy. That was a brilliant diagnosis since any feelings of inadequacy I might have were the consequences of females anyway. The guy expected me to pay him for that moment of insight. Hell, I stand in front of the mirror every day and say the same thing! The problem was that the doctor might have suggested a remedy or something but they never do that, it's easier to ask questions and then make a general statement that a cretin could make. I figured out my own remedy along the way - something like 'self-actualization' and it feels a helluva lot better than something you buy at a pharmacy. It took some fine-tuning but if you really want to get some self-satisfaction it's worth it - my self-prescribed remedy that is. But all this (my track record) had to start someplace, kinda like the origin of The Lone Ranger. He didn't just show up, right? So in order to really understand the larger picture I figured it might be cool to at least get into my first steps and let things flow from there. Let's just say her name was/is Jan. I was 23 years old and Jan was...well...she was my younger sister's best friend. There's no need to dwell on her age except to say she was a lot younger than me....and would have probably been a super good cheerleader. I was in college which made me 'cool' in Jan's eyes. She already had a crush on me and had made the mistake of mentioning it to my sister. That was fine with me. I thought Jan was cute and had potential to be real attractive. She had a solid body. Not fat at all, ok? Solid - the kind that looks real good in tight jeans or slacks. Her chest didn't look too big but she had plenty of time to let that happen. I'm not sure if you'd say Jan was blonde or had light brown hair. She wore it long - sometimes straight and other times layered and kept it nice. It wasn't until I found out she had a crush on me that I decided to treat myself to some fun and excitement and flirt back to see just how far things could go. I kept telling myself it wasn't every day a guy found a female with potential to be shaped and molded. I didn't know what the limits would be but exploring was going to be much of the fun - as long as I didn't get caught. Early in the spring I started making little comments to Jan whenever I was home and she was visiting. I'd catch her eye and wink at her and watch her blush. But then I'd catch her looking back at me with a smile. I'd be close to her and discreetly nudge her or lean gently against her - enough to get her attention so she knew I was interested. The good sign was that Jan evidently was not saying anything to my sister or anyone else about my subtle 'come ons' and that just made me bolder. I started looking at her with a more critical eye and liked what I saw. Once she got the idea I was actually flirting Jan started to try to act 'cool' and more mature than her age. That just benefitted me an made my goal more worthwhile. By mid-spring we were actually brushing against each other, lingering that way a few moments more than necessary. A couple times I would put her hand in mine - secretly - and hold it, hidden from everyone's view. She liked that - she give me a squeeze that she must have figured was 'sexy'. It wasn't long before Jan would arrange herself so she'd be next to me and it was her turn to 'hold hands'. And while that was going on, we'd still make 'innocent' jokes about 'secret boyfriend' and 'secret girlfriend'. Standing with her in the middle of people - my family or her friends and my sister's gave me an intense knot of excitement. Jan played along with this like an expert. Except for she and I nobody else had a clue. I'm not sure exactly when we started kissing. I remember it was a night Jan was staying over with my sister and we had held hands and stuff. I was sitting in a chair watching TV when Jan strolled by and 'accidently' dropped a piece of folded notebook paper in my lap. She kept walking without glancing back. I unfolded the note - just like I would have done 7-8 years before in high school - and Jan had written that if I wanted to do more than hold hands and 'pretend' that I should find a way to meet her in the big formal living room at my parents' house. At the suggested time I nonchalantly got up from TV and sauntered into the living room. The lights were out and hard to see in there. From the darkness I barely heard a whisper and saw movement. It was Jan and I stepped to her. She put her arms around my neck and looked up at me. "So do you want more?" she asked in a whisper. "Are you ready to do more?" I shot back. "Are you ready to do things the adult way?" She took the challenge and said she was. So we kissed. I pushed my tongue into Jan's mouth and swabbed her teeth and gums while she kissed back. But I also went a step further. I slid my hands to her ass and squeezed her asscheeks in her tight jeans. Damn they were good! Her ass was round and plump looking but so tight and firm. I had her ass in my hands and we 'frenched' there together for what seemed to be a long time. I sucked her tongue and let her copy me. I also pulled her tight against me so she HAD to feel my dick being so hard in my pants. Jan let me hold her ass real good and she let herself gently press against my hard dick in my pants but that was it - except for kissing and working our tongues together. We had started something now and I wanted to make sure it was going to be good. The sneaking and kissing like that went on for a month or so. We'd sneak to different rooms or even out to the garage some times. What was important was not getting caught or even raising the slightest suspicion. I started noticing that Jan was getting turned on the more we kissed. Her breathing would get faster and her mouth worked more energetically and she was pressing at me - even trying to fit that hot ass in my hands when we held each other. It was during one of those energetic frenching times that I decided to take the next step. "You want to go a little deeper with this?" I asked her. Jan looked at me confused. "Deeper?" she asked. "More than just this," I said and squeezed those asscheeks tighter. "More like a real boyfriend and girlfriend." There was a pause and Jan nodded and opened her mouth for my tongue. We were ready for the next level. The next 'safe' chance we got I had Jan in the garage, her back to the wall. We were kissing and I slid my hand to the crotch of her jeans. She froze and I kept kissing. I just kept my hand there applying pressure. Then I took Jan's hand and placed it firmly on my own crotch, pressing it against my hard cock at the same time I flexed it in my pants. Jan was breathing fast and after I moved her hand all over my lap I maneuvered between her thighs so my hardness was pressing right against her pussy. My hands went to her ass again and pulled her tight. It was like flipping a switch - Jan's hips began moving which - she didn't realize - made her pussy rotate right on my dick, arousing her. She started whimpering and clutching at me and really shoving her tongue down my throat. We had to scramble to break it up when my sister and mother began calling for Jan. Her face was flushed and I knew I had given her something to think about. And my cock was as hard a steel. I had to have her! It was late spring and I came home for the weekend. You have no idea how surprised and excited I got to discover Jan would be spending the weekend visiting my sister. As a matter of fact I found out when Jan's mother dropped her off at the house. My sister and mother had gone to the grocery store and I was alone in the kitchen. Jan's mother, another good, sturdy body with an attractive face named Carla, came in to make sure Jan would be ok if left there. I assured Carla I would be there until my sister returned and that seemed to satisfy her. But what satisfied me was Jan standing there in a pair of cut-off jeans showing her legs real nice - all the way up. The underside of Jan's asscheeks was almost visible and those full, sturdy thighs were driving me crazy. But Jan was wearing a halter-top that tied behind her neck. Her hair was down and had a wild look to it and as her mother drove off Jan took my hand and led me right to the stairs to the second floor. We went up and stood in the hallways kissing. I was feeling the smooth skin of her ass when Jan reached up and untied her halter. I just stared - amazed. The front slid down revealing two perfect tits. They weren't huge -actually somewhere between a B and C cup but they were firm and pear-shaped with wide, pink areola and nipples like pencil erasers. "Suck on them," Jan whispered. My mouth went to each tit, sucking gently but deeply, tonguing them and feeling her fingers go through my hair. I ran my hands over her bare back, her belly and then her hips, just wanting to feel her on me. "Keep sucking," she urged me. The nipples were hard and she was breathing hard. I decided she was ready for the next level. Jan just leaned back against the wall as I sucked. She was loving it. I slid to my knees and started kissing her belly while I kept my hands full of that smooth, firm titmeat. I got an idea - I brought my hands down and unbuttoned her cut-offs, waiting for her to stop me. Jan kept her hands on my head so I tugged the cut-offs. To my satisfaction the ragged jeans slid down to her ankles - her panties went with them. Oh yes, it was incredible. Right before my eyes was a set of smooth, full thighs and a perfect triangle of thick, curly golden pussy hair. Jan got nervous, she'd never had her pussy exposed before but the heat of the moment and the forbidden aspect was controlling her like it was me. "Open your legs," I whispered - although we were the only ones at the house. Jan hesitated and I ran my hands over those thighs. Then, to my pleasure, Jan pulled one foot free of the shorts at her ankles and parted her legs. I ducked my head and put my face between her thighs, something that caused her to open even more. I got m whole mouth on her pussy - the lips were soft and wrinkled and felt so good on my tongue. I pressed my tongue into her hole, feeling the pussy lips clinging to either side of my tongue. I snaked it up as deep as I could and swirled. Jan was wiggling her hips and gasping for breath. I sucked and licked, getting a faint taste of pussy juice. My hands went to her bare asscheeks and they were as plump and firm bare as they felt through her clothes. I licked at her crazily for several seconds until we heard a car pull up outside. My mother and sister had gotten home! In a flash I was up and Jan was getting dressed. By the time my mother and sister were getting in the door Jan was sitting quietly at the kitchen table and I was upstairs in my bedroom reliving those wonderful seconds. But a new thresh hold was crossed and now I was anxious to go further. My biggest fear was that such a close call might scare Jan. The rest of the afternoon and evening she acted aloof and I began to worry things went too far too fast. I decided to just cool it and wait until something tangible presented itself. It wasn't really long to wait. Because of her seasonal allergies my sister took all sorts of hay fever medicine. Late spring is ideal hay fever season, too. One of the side-effects o hay fever medicine is drowsiness and thank goodness for it! By late the next afternoon my sister was red-eyed and sniffling. Our parents held off giving her the medicine as late as they could out of deference to Jan. But it had to be done. I didn't give it a thought since Jan was being so aloof. But soon after dinner my sister could hardly keep her eyes open and as it got dark outside she was nodding off. Of course my parents were apologetic to Jan and she shrugged it off. So they volunteered MY services to go get some ice cream and whatever other shit gets eaten when girls get bored. I was pissed at being asked until Jan suddenly asked if she could ride along. We got out to the garage and started kissing again, that deep tongue kissing Jan was getting so good at. I figured it was my turn now so as we stood in the garage I took out my cock - hard and throbbing. I put Jan's hand on it and felt her grip it. "Feel good?" I asked her. She just looked at me and nodded. "Look at it," I told her. We both looked down at her hand wrapped around my cock. I flexed it and Jan sighed and started kissing me again. "Stroke it," I told her, showing her how to move her hand. "Tha's my COCK and you are jerking me off," I was instructing her. We frenched and watched her hand and kissed some more. "Faster," I told her. I made sure she was looking closely when she made me cum. A thick rope of semen jetted up in the air and splattered over her hand. Jan was amazed at how warm it felt and I had her keep stroking until I was emptied. "That is how girlfriends make their boyfriends feel real good," I told her. She was grinning nervously but I knew she felt 'grown up' now. The next month had Jan visiting regularly. We were sneaking away to kiss and I'd feel her up, suck her tits and lick that golden haired pussy. Jan loved kissing and got very good at hand jobs. She especially liked watching how powerfully she made me shoot my load. Better still, nobody suspected a thing. With the summer came the bikinis and Jan looked good in hers. Just seeing her around the pool at my parents' house kept me hard and I couldn't dare go out there when she was around. When I found out she was staying overnight for the long July 4th weekend I was in seventh heaven. I knew something would happen or I'd have to make it happen. But the timing of things surprised me. My sister and mother were gone again. It was late afternoon and they had to pick up another friend of my sister's who was also coming for the holiday. Less than 10 minutes after they left me alone at the house, Carla, Jan's mother pulled up to drop off Jan. Less than 5 minutes after Carla left, Jan and I were racing upstairs to my bedroom. I made some quick calculations and told Jan we had about forty-five minutes, maybe an hour, to be alone. She was as anxious as me. She was wearing a black bikini and the top came off right away. We laid on the bed kissing and I was sucking her tits as I worked my hand under her bikini bottoms. "Let me play with you," Jan pleaded and my clothes were hardly off when her hand was around my cock feeling it and stroking it. I slid her bottoms off and just gazed at that golden bush. "Open your legs," I told her and Jan slowly parted her thighs. I got my face in as deep as I could and began licking, feeling her hips move and push at my mouth. Then her juices started. Once she got turned on Jan's legs spread wider. I held both asscheeks and licked and sucked at her clit, feeling it swell. Jan was pumping my dick and staring at it. I lifted my wet face and looked at her. "You want it?" I asked. She looked back blankly. "Where?" I smiled. "Let's fuck," I said. She got nervous. "Are you sure?" Her eyes were wide. I didn't care. I wanted to fuck her. She kept looking at me while I gently rubbed her pussy. I slowly turned around until we were face-to-face, her hand still holding my cock. Neither of us said a word. Jan opened her legs wide and I moved down between them. I pushed her feet back so she was spread nice and wide and looked down at that pussy. "Put me in you," I said as steady as I could. I felt Jan moving the head of my cock around her pussy until she found the hole and pressed me against it. Putting her hands on my shoulders she nodded and I pushed in gently but steadily. I saw her wince and suddenly my cock was enveloped in liquid heat. I slid up into her all the way while she held me tight. Her body felt perfect under me. "Are you ready to be fucked?" I whispered in her ear. "Uh huh," she grunted. Holding her hips I started fucking her. Jan's head moved up and down and my cock slid in and out. I made sure to make contact with her swollen clit and the wetter she got the more her hips moved. "Fuck me," she kept hissing in my ear. "Fuck me with your big cock." We moved together so good it was unreal. I didn't kiss her, we just kept staring at each other as she repeated, "Fuck me...fuck me." I went deep, making sure her pussy felt every inch I had. "Do I do it good?" Jan asked, her head jerking. "Does my pussy feel good?" I assured her she was perfect. I didn't want it to end. But Jan climaxed first - a squealing, whimpering climax that made her body stiffen and wiggle. I kept fucking her, the movement keeping her turned on. "I want to cum in you," I told her. But Jan was too far gone to care. Her big nipples ran along my chest and she was groaning. "You want it in you?" I asked and Jan clutched at me. "Yes!" she almost yelled. "Cum in me. Shoot in me!" I reached down to grip those round asscheeks and shoved deep. I could feel the tingling as those long pulsing strings of semen shot from my cock and splattered the walls of Jan's pussy. I kept fucking her, letting the cum act as lube also, making her crotch a mess of slime. When I pulled out I made Jan keep her legs open so I could view my work. Silvery sperm bubbled inside her hole and I massaged it deeper while Jan laid there and sighed contentedly. When we dressed and went downstairs we sat at the table and waited. Jan kept asking if she was a good fuck and if I liked her pussy. The talk got her hot again and she slid down her bikini bottoms and got on my lap, taking my cock and pushing it up in her pussy again. She got a second load of cum in her about 15 minutes before everyone else got home. We started to fuck every chance we got. During that long weekend I fucked Jan three more times. Every time she visited that summer her legs were spread and she went home with a load in her. Once she started she didn't seem to get enough cock. Even when school started we'd sneak for sex. And at Halloween time we got together. I was in my car that night and Jan made an excuse to get out. I picked her up two blocks from her house. We drove to a dark lot about 20 minutes away and got in the back seat. Her top was open and I was sucking a tit while she jerked me off and Jan whispered, "I'm pregnant." I felt a jolt of electricity go through me. "I'm gonna have a baby," she said, putting my hand on her belly. "I've got your baby in my tummy." I was excited and scared at the same time. I loved the idea that Jan was knocked up. I was terrified at what her parents were gonna do to me. She climbed on my lap and got my cock up in her. "You like fucking your pregnant girlfriend?" she asked, riding me. She was thrilled at being pregnant. She climaxed so many times during that fuck that I don't think she even felt me pump a load of sperm in her. Jan didn't start showing until just before Xmas. By that time I had left the state. I got accepted to a school in Oklahoma and didn't get to hear the threats and shit from Jan's parents. Of course I got some legal letters banning me from making any contact with her and forbidding me to get within a mile of her. I don't know how my side of folks handled things except that I was on my own now. I didn't mind, really. I discovered a real thrill at breeding Jan. I started wondering if maybe this wasn't something that could be enjoyed over the long term. I never hurt a female physically - never laid a hand on one when angry. I started planning how to really enjoy this pasttime. I'd have to be careful of course but I knew how to take care of myself. Yeah, Jan's parents were pissed. Big deal. What they didn't know was that I kept getting these envelopes in a post office box - each envelop always had a couple photos in it - pictures of Jan in maternity clothes, photos of Jan nude, her smooth belly bulging and round, pictures of those formerly pear-shaped tits now heavy with milk resting atop a swollen pregnant belly and then a couple of photos of Jan, belly distended, legs wide, touching her hairy cunt. The most promising photos were the ones of her sitting in a chair with our baby sucking milk from those nice tits. Jan had written a note on the back that said: "Just the first of many only coming from you..." I figured our paths might cross again but even I was blown away how it happened. And that is the beginning - the awakening for me. At the time I wasn't angry at females. I am still not angry at them. But along my path some things happened that gave me more reason to continue as The Seed Blaster. This was just the beginning. 4732 1.39/512345